Zeynep's (mis)Adventures in Ruritania

arise, oh people, let us hear your voices... your voices of freedom.

Thursday, September 16

don't panic

My mom's depression has practically consumed her in every way possible now.

She doesn't sleep at night, only during the day. She's always napping because she can't fall asleep when the rest of us do. She's constantly tired and moody, yelling at us for the smallest things. She'll often cry in a room by herself, and then will pretend everything's OK when you go to investigate what's the matter. My sister and I have made sure to divide all the kitchen chores between the two of us. I check books out for my mom from the library, but she doesn't finish them. Every now and then, she has a great day when she's smiling, cheerful, and helpful... but then she slips back into being down about the state of things. It's just so bizarre.

I've been reading about manic depression on a few websites, and she definitely shows symptoms of a classic case. Though I'm no psychologist, I think it's pretty obvious in her. That's the easy part. The hard part now is, I have NO idea what to do about it. She needs therapy, but that's a luxury that we don't have available anymore. I could go see the camp's doctors about it, but I think that they are more worried about physical disease, not mental. I guess the only option is for her to suffer through it herself until she realizes what's going on. :(